You're Not There

I can see you

I can feel you crawling under my skin

I feel the pressure

As it rises up

Because you're not really there

Standing in front of me

Smiling at me

Huging me for the first time

Being in your arms

Feeling the warmth of your body

But you're not there?

Why do I imagine you?

Why can't your memory from the past just go away?

I guess your memory  will never fade

Because your half of what I am

But you're not there

You never were

To call me your daughter

To say/sing "Happy Birthday"

To say "How was your day?" when I come home from school

You were never there for me

You were never there for anything

Just a past memory keeps you alive,

But what hurts the most

Is that you were never there to say 

"I love you".